I didn’t initially plan on shooting Ruth for the project. I hadn’t seen her in the last year and we had decided to meet for coffee and catch up. We can all do a lot of changing in a year’s time. So much so that we have to kind of re-introduce ourselves. Just by observing Ruth’s art and work over the last year I was really excited to see what her journey had looked like.
What I discovered it something that this project and the conversations that I’ve had in and around it have revealed time and time again; A genuine and passionate human that longs for more, seeks it out to the best of their ability and often feels lost or alone.
I’ve met this enough times now that it seems to be part of the human condition of searching. A beautiful tide of discovery and defeat. A tide that we often feel we’re drifting on alone in our own little fragile rowboat, praying that the next wave doesn’t toss us into a rock or the sea itself. I see reflections of my own feelings and emotions in these conversations. I understand it and it’s just as healing for me to be reminded that I’m not alone as it seems to be for the other person across from me.
Ruth and I talked for an hour or so and then I invited her to be a part of the project. A passionate visual artist with a keen eye and beautiful ideas, Ruth herself is quite shy and reluctantly agreed as she was nervous at having her own portrait taken. Something, believe it or not, she’d never had done.
The portraits and her interview are very reflective of her in their own way. They’re shy and honest and I so appreciate them for that.
Ruth, thank you so much for being the wonder and artist that you are and thank you for taking the time to share your heart! I can’t wait to see what you have in store for us all next!
Love Aimlessly, My Friends
What gets you out of bed every day?
My work. Just work in general. I have a pretty good work ethic. You do what you have to do. Even when it comes to my day job that I don’t really care for. I still get up at 4:00 am and go to work.
Even if I reach further into it, It’s still my work. I love getting up to work! I feel lucky to be able to do that.
This whole last year I’ve really been working on becoming better. Becoming a better artist. A better human-being. Just an overall better person. That really drives me. I think that all goes hand and hand and I look forward to working on all of that every day.
My cats also get me out of bed.
To date, what is the greatest lesson that you’ve learned?
To stop running away from yourself. You’ll never get away so you might as well embrace it. I’m leaning that. You have to take it all in. I have lived most of my life ignoring the fact that I was there. The me. The true me. Accepting that I’m here and learning to embrace myself for all that I am and find the beauty there.
What is love?
I don’t know but I’m trying to figure it out. If I had to say, I think that love is… finding the warmth in this really cold world. Surrounding yourself with those people that make this shit a little bit warmer and giving that back to them.